Someone please Help me. I need Help, I don’t know what to do, I feel lost and Hopeless. I am trusting that God, will make this depression, something good in my life. (It will help me) I pray to God, because it seems like he is the only one I can trust. I can not really trust my a dad or mom, when ever I talk to them, they don’t really care. A couple days ago, the way my dad was treating was making me feel very suicidal, I told him, he is making me suicidal, and he said “I don’t care” This is one of the Reasons, why I can trust him. I don’t know if God has rebuked me, and I debating if I should curse God, and go on with my life. Whenever I feel like this God is never near. In a Psalm, it says “The LORD is close to the broken hearted, close to crushed in spirit” and I don’t feel like God is near, it feels like he is as far as can be. The other day, I got mad at God, so I used his and Jesus name in vain, because i thought if I could make God mad he might notice me. I usually and very against using the Lords name in vain. I ask people to not say his name like that around me. But I don’t know if God really cares enough about me.
I have therapy ever other week, and so I don’t have it this week. I have missed it for 4 weeks now. My problems have got more and more worse, without talking to anyone about them. (I don’t have anyone I can trust)