I am in desperate need of prayers right now. I am in deep pain and feel almost unable to continue; my emotions are extremely low. Last month, my girlfriend and I broke up, and our five-year relationship came to an end. Looking back to December, I was emotionally unstable and irrational, which led me to make the wrong decision.

Let’s talk a bit about our story. Before five years, my girlfriend and I met at a Christian camp and got very close very quickly. I prayed to God, and God brought us closer and closer, and we built a strong connection in Christ. We paused for a while to seek God, and in the end, God showed us more and more peace. We finally got together.

Now, I deeply regret it! I made a decision that was not from the Holy Spirit or from God, and it severely hurt her. Now, many happy memories keep flashing through my mind. Being with this girl brought me so much joy, and she was also my best spiritual companion. However, over the past period, our relationship was often one-sided. I was too self-centered and failed to play the role of a good man. I often couldn’t care for her life, nor did I put God at the center of our relationship.

Now, I have tried many ways to repair this relationship, but she has completely lost hope in it. I am now deeply immersed in pain. Additionally, after receiving Christian counseling recently, I realized that my heart is filled with various wounds from my family of origin. These wounds are the root cause of my constant demands for her to give endlessly in the relationship, and they are also the core issue of this relationship. I now understand my mistakes and actively pray for myself to heal from the wounds or trauma. Now my inner problems have weakened.

Despite this situation, I still hold a very strong heart to Jesus and I know that he will hear my prayer and trust with my whole heart.

Lord, if you are willing, please grant me a chance to start over. Lord, could You give me an opportunity to mend this broken relationship?