Hi How are you all? If you're saved by Jesus and not good works like baptism, please pray for me. I had hard time last year, but I was okay with celebrating Christmas. It was our first Christmas without our mom. This is the 2nd Christmas without our Mom. On top of that Christmas Eve 2015 will be 9 years since one of my friends died.

I never felt this way before, but I do not even want to celebrate Christmas. (I probably will, because I’ve a big family.) Sometimes, I just do not want to go to any church. I still go to some churches near where I live. I feel like I cannot share my feelings fully with my family. They misinterpreted my grieving as moodiness. I’m extremely sad. (not depressed) Christmas is not bubbly without our Mom. It’s not bad I just know it is different based on last year. Mommy was like the life of the party. We did not need alcohol to have a party. I know we are also blessed by Jesus, because He sent my niece and nephew. My niece will be 1 year old on January 4, 2025 and nephew will be 1 years old on March 6, 2025. They give us some happiness and I am thank Jesus for them and that my Dad is still with us. (We could have lost him if it was not for our Mom noticing that he was having a stroke. He had to major strokes) If you're saved by Jesus and not good works, please pray for me to get out of my moodiness and disappointment. Also, saved people please pray I can take death better and right now I can get into the Christmas Spirit. Just a friendly reminder Jesus loves you all! Jesus saves! Please feel free to check out www.chick.com Thanks for reading!