Have not been on here for awhile. Why because I had nothing left. I have been so depressed I had not the words to say. We lost the one dog not pretty and the other dog is sick do not know what for sure. yesterday my wife stayed under the blankets all day as her arthritis gets so bad in this type of weather she has hard time with her hands. My disabled son still having problems with his right leg and yesterday was worse than normal. It is has been bad all around for a long time. I sit here and think why does a loving God do this to us? O yes lets not forget my brother who leaves several state’s away and who I have only spoken to on the phone once in the last 2 years. His son is much worse than mine never spoken a word and almost always sick. He rarely eats most of the time he is feed through a tube which has to be replaced soon. That has to be hard him going to hospital again don’t know what he is thinking he does not speak does he understand why he is going no one knows for sure.