I started a new job working with children at a hospital.
I was convinced the Lord ordained circumstances for me to work here.

Today was confusing.
I’ve been having issues with my coworkers, with the inadequate training, with the extreme behaviors of the children themselves, and with the slack that other people leave in the teamwork that I’m learning how to cover. Management is optimistic things will get better but I don’t really see accountability applied equally. I feel unfairly treated but I try to treat my coworkers and the children with kindness and respect.

Today I made a mistake in my paperwork. I feel so far from God. I try my best every day and I feel like my best is not enough here. I feel confused and concerned for my future here.
I feel like I’m isolated outside of work. I don’t know where the right place for me is.

I pray that these children can heal and that their lives can get better.

I need comfort and hope.
I know I’m wrong sometimes and I want to learn how to do the right thing every single time even if I’m the only one doing the right thing.