Many prayers as I decided on church. I have prayed and my feeling go unchanged for this. I lbelive in God Jesus and the Holy Spirit. Iam not going to fit in this cookie cutter image people want. Why do I need to where makeup. Why do I need jewelry Why do I need to have hair all done perfect that’s not me. I don’t have my breast hanging out anymore. Iam usually covered up pretty well. I love to where legging and sweet pants. I would never have worn a dress in the past now I will wear some sun dresses sometime but not a whole lot of jewelry and make up. I go to church to worship God not to be put down for past sins already been forgiven for and the sins that someday think is unforgivable like the abortion I had as a teen. Lord I know you have forgiven me when others will not. I know iam a murderer for this I was young and had no clue. Uncle was going to have boyfriend put in jail if I didn’t get abortion. Richard’s Grandfather relied on him as an employe for his company and bring in money for family. He didn’t want the child either and my mom didn’t want to help either. Let your will be done