Met someone im physical therapy while on a 75 day fast. So wasnt sure if this was of God or not but later found out he does weed for back pain as he awaits a surgery for stimulater. we prayed on it and then they finally gave him a date and in months us talking he said good things have been coming his way including being approved to work from home because hes on workman comp and only getting certain percentage so financially not doing well. Je didnt grow up in a church but does believe im God and ended up going to my church and studying the bible on his own and when we would go thru arguments or something he would pray immediately so i thought this man is being worked on and maybe hes it. But too many things in few months that has me unsettled. Hes not baptized either. Found porn that was old but later checked again and say recent ones and he said it was him deleting but how is it deleting if in his history so trust died then i had originaly asked if he with someone at therapy and he said no first but later found out he had kissed Someone and did weed with her a yr ago but that was it. Then day we were supoosed to go on vacation to his moms the electricty went out at my kids house so their dad asked for them to stay at my moms and he would get them after so he made a decision we would no longer go so it upset me because i took time off for myself i never make so figured he never planned to go in first place. Then when i left mad he didnt follow me or call until i did then he apologized. Then took a 7 day fast from him because i was too focused on his relationship with God and his weed and his video games and not even asking me to be a girlfriend properly because he said he was saving money for it. So on end day of fast at church i saw him and he helped me take kids home since i had class but when i told him id call after class i did and he was playing video games. I feel if he really missed me her drop the games and talk to me so i expressed this through text because i told him call me later since i was with kids. But never did so i texted and he replied his way of showing love was taking my kids home and how i didnt hold his hand in church that it was me that stopped talking to me. So i told him how i felt and to not call me unless he felt led to and was ready for us to talk as adults because he texts more than calls and thats not for me when talking serious talks. I prayed he wouldnt call me back if this wasn’t of God. He hasnt called and i feel a but anxious though a bit of peace. I felt more peace when i wasnt talking to him during fast but hes a good man that helps me with kids yet does weed, he has to change his surgery date now, hes not financially stable and i just cant because my last marriage i was the main provider, and hes just spiritually not mature hes just starting so i need strength to trust God and be fine if he never calls again