I have had a lot of things happen to me my whole life. My parents were both physically abusive at different times of my life. One was emotionally abusive to only me. I have been r worded, cheated on, lied to, abused by boyfriends in the past and one now. This year I gave birth to a beautiful son who is now 7 months old and had a foley get inserted incorrectly 10 times, and found out a day before he was born, he was losing oxygen. The year prior to this year me and my family found out my baby sister had been touched by her father which is her biological dad and not mine. My mother had kept it hidden for years and I wondered if it happened to me and she just never told me. Back to this year, I had two surgeries in one month. One was an emergency appendectomy, and it was about to burst, and the second surgery was to see if I had cervical cancer. Thank God both went well, and I do not have cancer. However, during both surgeries and just giving birth I lost my job and my relationship with my child's father has been wrecked. We just started to go to church but has cheated enough times where I do not love him, in fact I hate him. I'm not sure why my prayer request became this long, I'm just asking for prayers for two things…I want our relationship to be Christ centered. I want Christ to do a miracle that only He can do. I have had faith in God for many things in my life. With everything I've gone through and shared I never lost love. But I am not sure where I am. I do not know who I am anymore. The hurt has caught up to me and I am lost. The second prayer is to do a miracle in me too; I want my old self back. I know in some ways I won't get that because I had a baby. But I want the kind me again, the one who is weird and silly. The non angry me. I want to feel internal peace again because I can't find it. I guess the third prayer because I have a third ask is to please ask the Lord to assist me in getting a remote job. I lost my job this year due to discrimination of being a new mom and it's been hard to live like this. I want to be able to give my son and my dogs things they love. I can't do that without a job. So please all in all I ask if you can 1. Pray for my relationship with my child's father. That we can find Christ together and have that love for each other again so we can show our son what love looks like. 2. If you can pray that I get my spark back with God, I lost myself over the years and I am lost. Completely. and lastly 3. That God can grant me a job that I can work from home and care for my home but mostly me, my beautiful son, and my wonderful dog. Thank you all. May God bless you all.