I wonder if someone could help me find my faith. I was very strong in the Lord, but my son died 4 and a half years ago and I went through the whole thing alone. I had divorced his dad several years before and the father turned both of my kids against me, even took them from me. So my son and I had been estranged for years, I learned of his death from my daughter who lives 2 hours away from me. She did not come to be with me and I haven't had friends for a long time. I spent the whole day and following week (out of work on bereavement) alone. Then later there was a memorial service up in PA where he lived, I was not even recognized as the mom. Nobody knew me because my ex had shunned me. I was ignored, actually have NEVER to this day received a hug from anyone over it. The day after my son's service I called the church I attended and asked for someone to talk with. I was told there was a grief workshop coming up in 3 months, I was welcome to sign up for that. I've never been to church since. Why does God leave me all alone? Why have I had to go thru such pain alone?