I'm in despair and I even feel like giving up on praying. I know God can do anything, but He keeps saying no or wait. It's been 10 years of misery in my marriage. My husband is a mean narcissist. I know God hates divorce and I am trying to avoid it, but each day, I get more and more ready for it. He yells, cusses, drives like a maniac. Does the Lord really want me to stay in this, or will He give us a miracle and transform my husband's heart? I've tried everything.