I know God knows what is hurting me and I know I have to believe in his timing but this is going on too long. My husband of 30 years has always dismissed my feelings, belittled me in front of my children (now adults) and is still so disrespectful and treats me as if I am to be be used at his convenience. I think it's best for me to leave now that the our kids are out of the house but I don't know how to make it happen. Please pray that God gives me wisdom to make the right decision.