I don't know what to do anymore. I gave up drinking 2 years and 2 months and I decided to pick back up I feel very lost and condemned by God as if I failed him again my earthly father told me boy you'll never amount to anything and I don't know where you came from. I battle with trying to be a people pleaser even if it goes against me and I am tired and worn out wondering if God really loves me like he says he does I don't even know what to pray for anymore I'm just so worn out if anyone understands what I'm going through can you please pray for me because now once again I'm a drunkard and I smoke like a chimney I'm just lost