Many prayers Lord. I have scheduled a procedure the earliest they had was mid Sept. Pain is getting bad sometime prayers I can make it till then I don’t want to go to hospital . My knees are in Alot of pain also drs want to do procedure for lots large and small vains in legs. Want to get to drs for that and eyes after this procedure and they find out whats going on. I got knee braces to help with this which they are helping when on mostly. Lord please help me with this my anxiety goes way up when I need to go to Dr’s and even trying to schedule. I get this fear of guilt going to drs. I belive this is from when younger and mom could always get us to drs because of money and she had no insurance. My sister hated my mom and would tell everyone she wouldn’t take us to drs. Iam so sorry that because of me my family had to go through this. I was just a child I know I shouldn’t have this guilt that my sister didn’t alway get to go when needed neither did I and mom had to spend lot of money on totur for my dyslexia I am also sorry that I didn’t speak up when we where I think about 4 or 5 when we got into a car accident with poppop he hit my sister pretty hard and said to the both of us don’t you say a word. Lord I feel like this is something I should apologize for but don’t know how to. I didn’t even Remember this until I started having nightmares about it about 3 3 1/2 yrs ago. The nightmares went away but the thought of this event is now always with me. Let your will be done.