Prayers Lord it drives me crazy when people say I need to be around more people I know i can’t just keep to myself and I don’t. I have plenty of family in the house I started the baking business to get me out some and to also be doing something I love and gives me a since of accomplishment espically coming up with ways to avoid my food alligerys and help others that have similar issues and hopefully where I start to donate will benefit someone that may have similar issues which in this area have ran into a few ran into alot that have other issues but I can’t help them all. I seem to have a easier time talking to people at the market. When I go out other times get tired of one’s that like to make fun of my talking and the way I pronouncing words. I try to learn and remember correctly but alot of time it can take me time to get out or I have to correct myself been told this is part of my dexelia and there is no fix but repeat repeat take it slow. When I hear people sometimes I need them to repeat and to please go slow or be willing to repeat. This was so hard when my husband didn’t understand he use to tell me I will only say it one time. I wouldnt speak back much then i have learned to speak up for self which cannstill be difficult at time and i get loud and my whole body trimmers and the only level i can get words out is loud. And Well when I don’t alway remember things in order and need to write down and iam slow on that and you don’t want me to record so I can relisten or be patientto let me write down . I will not get it right. Husband said he learned that from his father and has worked hard to cope with my issues. As time has gone on his father just say I don’t play well with others well when you don’t understand and you refuse to repeat of course I can’t play well with others I know some stuff I can’t participate when very seriously espically betting games and games with speed unless I know how to play and cope with my issues. When you go to Dr’s and they laugh at you when trying to speak and understand so when I leave the office iam not in confussion and don’t understand what to do and making sure what theybare doing isn’t going to effect other medical issues I have. I understand the drs are treating for one thing but when that one treatment may effect other part of your health um I belive that is important. They don’t have to deal with it I do. I understand so my thought on that is that that Dr doesn’t care about the patients whole health being effected by what they may be treating you with. And this leads to one of my biggest issues I have with trying to decided to go back to church where they to also when giving out food people should take what is given yes sometime you do what you got to but when you have health issues this can be tough and I belive this is why I feel so drawn to get involved with donating to the food banks don’t care if it church or other any of them so there can be more options than just what others don’t want and or expired stuff. Some stuff expired is ok but some stuff isn’t. One time a church gave me canned items that where 3yr expired they said no bulging its good. My Granny use to be like that. The bacteria that grows and is growing to cause that can to start balging yea that would be a no. We weren’t in a war there was no shortage of food in the county. I know it sucks throwing away but is it really much better to make people eat this just because they are having hard time. Let your will be done.